All Pumped Up with No Place to Go: Changing My Focus.

GREAT — I come back all ready to write and take on the world after attending Blissdom, but guess what? That is not how it works. I have a real life with real responsibilities that take precedence. Yay.

Obviously — obviously — my family comes first. As someone who chose to be a stay at mom, I think this goes without saying. And really, when will this ever change? I would never want to compromise their happiness or well being. So I will do laundry. I will do the grocery shopping. I will provide meals of some sort that aren’t complete junk. I will give hugs and kisses on demand. These are things that will always be part of my life.

But I have other responsibilities, too.

Late last summer I started working part time as an independent distributor for a home show based company, mainly because I felt like a bum for not bringing in any income and felt guilty for spending money on myself. I KNOW. Ok? I know. But still. That’s how I felt (feel). And I do enjoy that job – it has great perks, I choose my hours, and it has the potential to bring in a lot of income. But not if I don’t focus on it. And that is not where my heart is. And there are still only 24 hours in a day and seven days in a week.

So where does this leave me? I mean, I think I know where this leaves me: I have to make a choice. And I know I am super fortunate to be in the position to make this choice, but I hate being a quitter, you know? And right now what it comes down to is this: Love or Money.

Or? SHOWERS.

That’s it. You know what? If I just give up showers I may be able to squeeze everything in. And one meal. I can give up showers and one meal and that might do it. AND SLEEP. Yes! I can certainly cut back on those luxurious 6 hours of sleep I’ve been getting *almost* every night. I mean, who do I think I am – Oprah?

I don’t know why I even bothered you with this silly “choice” thing. I apologize.

I got this.

Ommmm….